…without kicking them in the crotch..
So, I told the boss today and it was hard. Fucking hard. I paced around outside his cubicle a few times…pretended I was doing something else…chatted about banal stuff and then finally just bit the bullet.
I guess that if your boss is upset and disappointed to see you leave that it’s probably a good thing and a reflection of your work, but it just makes it frigging harder. It was hard enough for me to tell him, but when he said that he really hoped that I would last and that no-one’s left within 3 months before and mentioned how much money had been spent on me getting the position, I felt like the smallest little dogturd in a pile of big dogturds.
I am not very good at saying things to people that I know they don’t want to hear. That could be a flaw or it could be a positive part of my personality (depends on the situation…) but even when I know that I am ultimately making a decision that is best for me I start to think that it is the wrong one.
He told me that they had big plans for me and that he was hoping to get me into a different area after my first year, and get me trained up in Microsoft stuff (MCSE). Blah blah blah. I didn’t know what to say. I tried to impress on him that it wasn’t just the money as to why I wanted to go. (I didn’t want to sound like a money hungry bastard) But there were too many things about this new job that made it too good to deny.
Well..the hardest bit is out of the way. I feel a little better, but I always hate the limbo stage when you have given notice at your job. Straight away you feel like an outsider and that you don’t belong. I hope these next few weeks go fast.
Oh yeah, and they don’t like you taking sick leave after you’ve given notice. Bastards. I’ve tried that before.